Infertility, Miscarriage, Our Infertility story

What infertility looks like

July 22, 2011

First of all, THANK YOU so much to all of you for the amazing outpouring of support over the past few days.  We truly feel loved and are so thankful for that.

We returned to the doctor today because I couldn’t stand to wait until Monday and stay on the meds that long.  Today’s ultrasound confirmed the one from two days ago.  No surprise.  But, now we can get on with things.  I’m not looking forward to what’s coming.  Waiting around for your body to sneak up on you at an inopportune moment to start the miscarrying process.  I was really hoping for a D&C, but they want to let it happen if it will.  This has never happened to me before.  Our miscarriages have always come about abruptly and while still on the meds.  So, now we wait…

I have been doing better, but tonight hasn’t been so good.  My coveted glass of wine didn’t really have the effect I was looking for.  An online friend recently wrote a blog post about grief being non-linear and being more like a pinball machine shooting around everywhere.  She is exactly right because that is exactly how I feel.

But, we’ll be ok.  This is normal.  We just need to get it out.  This means I’ll feel better tomorrow, right?

There are good days, mostly good, but there are bad days and this is one.

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smeared mascara,

sad face,

broken heart,

barren body.

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  • I’m sorry this is one of the bad days. I was so hoping and praying that you would have lots of good days throughout the pregnancy instead. 🙁 Hang in there… ((HUGS))

  • Thinking of you. I’m sorry you’re going through this again. Your picture is beautiful and says so much.

  • Hey, thanks for the shout out. You know I’m right there with you. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. There’s nothing anyone can say to take away the pain, but getting it out does help, and so does knowing you’re not alone. In the end though, the only way out is through. And we will get through this, in time. I hope tomorrow is a better day. Take care of yourself and don’t feel bad about feeling sad. (((hugs)))

  • I understand. The bad days, they suck beyond belief. Thinking of you – big hugs, girl. Huge ones.

  • What an expressive picture. Thinking of you. It sucks you have to wait now for nature to take its course, that is just awful.
    Hope you hit back at that pinball machine.

  • Hugs. Have another glass of wine…!

  • Hugs…
    So sorry you have to wait…

  • C

    I’m so very sorry. There just aren’t words.

    ((HUGS))

  • I’m so very, very sorry Whitney.

  • Whitney,

    I’ve been thinking of you lots and am so, so sorry for your loss. It’s just so terribly unfair. Wishing you peace and love.

    xo

    Mara

  • Trisha

    Whitney,

    You and Erick are in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you lots of love and healing.

    I wish I was there to take you out for a drink – or 2 or even just a hug.

    Love,
    Trisha

  • maddie

    Woa what a beautiful picture, so expressive in so many ways. I read your blog and I thank you for all the info. I have been thru the same too many times. My grieving mix is as follows> Wine, Salsa dancing, Yoga, Massage. Repeat as necessary 🙂 Sorry you have to go thru this

  • Ciara

    So sorry, I’ve been there and I wish there was something I could say that would ease your pain.

    ((Hugs))

  • Whitney,

    I am so sorry. You and Erick are in my thoughts and prayers. (((((hugs)))))

  • Thank God for the good days, because the bad ones are so rough and the pain feels unbearable. I’m so sorry you are here again.

  • I’m so sorry you are going through this yet again, Whitney. You don’t deserve this. No one does. Keeping you and Erick in my thoughts.

    xo

  • I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. The waiting must be unbearable, I’m so sorry.

  • Whitney, I’m so, so sorry for your loss. I never know what to say when I read about this happening to people, so know that you’re in my thoughts and I’m holding you in my heart.

  • Andrea Ramsay

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