First of all, THANK YOU so much to all of you for the amazing outpouring of support over the past few days. We truly feel loved and are so thankful for that.
We returned to the doctor today because I couldn’t stand to wait until Monday and stay on the meds that long. Today’s ultrasound confirmed the one from two days ago. No surprise. But, now we can get on with things. I’m not looking forward to what’s coming. Waiting around for your body to sneak up on you at an inopportune moment to start the miscarrying process. I was really hoping for a D&C, but they want to let it happen if it will. This has never happened to me before. Our miscarriages have always come about abruptly and while still on the meds. So, now we wait…
I have been doing better, but tonight hasn’t been so good. My coveted glass of wine didn’t really have the effect I was looking for. An online friend recently wrote a blog post about grief being non-linear and being more like a pinball machine shooting around everywhere. She is exactly right because that is exactly how I feel.
But, we’ll be ok. This is normal. We just need to get it out. This means I’ll feel better tomorrow, right?
There are good days, mostly good, but there are bad days and this is one.