I haven’t had a whole lot to say lately. We’re in a tough spot right now and feeling stuck. We really want to adopt and are really trying to put the word out with everyone we know. I set up a Facebook page tonight to share with the world. The idea is to get friends to share with friends and hopefully make that connection with the right person. So, please like and share our page.
We also received a very sweet note and generous donation to our fund from a friend today. I feel so humbled that this person was so kind. It’s so nice to know that there are good people out there, especially when you feel that the world is conspiring against you sometimes.
I’m feeling overwhelmed right now as I have been working a lot this month. I feel like I have missed fall. However, all of my hard work is paying off as I will be contributing around $1000 to our adoption fund from money I made with Stella & Dot this month. I sold a lot of jewelry!
Also, at the same time, I am still doing adoption research, which feels like a third job.
Thankfully, we are going to get to go on a vacation next week. We are going to Puerto Rico, so we’ll get to have fun and relax and visit Erick’s family. Also, we plan on meeting with someone in a government office about adoption while we are there. It is going to be so nice to have a day off this year that is not 1) for fertility procedures 2) sick 3) to work my 2nd job. That’s right — I haven’t taken one vacation day this whole year just to be off. So, this vacation is desperately needed.
Also, I met my niece for the first time this month and I am in love. She is such a sweet little girl and no matter what happens, I am grateful to have this little person in my life.
Even though I’m working and saving, there still is no master plan or sure way to a child right now. It’s extremely frustrating to be so powerless.
Also, this is not exciting right now, which is the reaction we get from everyone when we tell them we want to adopt. I’m glad everyone is excited for us, but this is scary and overwhelming right now. We still don’t feel extremely hopeful or that we’re almost there. Maybe if we were a waiting family and had done everything we could, we’d feel a little better. But, we are stuck in between. I guess we are guarded with our emotions about this as we don’t know if this will ever actually happen.