Trying to move forward

October 27, 2011

I haven’t had a whole lot to say lately.  We’re in a tough spot right now and feeling stuck.  We really want to adopt and are really trying to put the word out with everyone we know.  I set up a Facebook page tonight to share with the world.  The idea is to get friends to share with friends and hopefully make that connection with the right person.  So, please like and share our page.

We also received a very sweet note and generous donation to our fund from a friend today.  I feel so humbled that this person was so kind.  It’s so nice to know that there are good people out there, especially when you feel that the world is conspiring against you sometimes.

I’m feeling overwhelmed right now as I have been working a lot this month. I feel like I have missed fall. However, all of my hard work is paying off as I will be contributing around $1000 to our adoption fund from money I made with Stella & Dot this month.  I sold a lot of jewelry!

Also, at the same time, I am still doing adoption research, which feels like a third job.

Thankfully, we are going to get to go on a vacation next week.  We are going to Puerto Rico, so we’ll get to have fun and relax and visit Erick’s family.  Also, we plan on meeting with someone in a government office about adoption while we are there.   It is going to be so nice to have a day off this year that is not 1) for fertility procedures   2) sick  3) to work my 2nd job.   That’s right — I haven’t taken one vacation day this whole year just to be off.  So, this vacation is desperately needed.

Also, I met my niece for the first time this month and I am in love.  She is such a sweet little girl and no matter what happens, I am grateful to have this little person in my life.

Even though I’m working and saving, there still is no master plan or sure way to a child right now.  It’s extremely frustrating to be so powerless.

Also, this is not exciting right now, which is the reaction we get from everyone when we tell them we want to adopt.  I’m glad everyone is excited for us, but this is scary and overwhelming right now.  We still don’t feel extremely hopeful or that we’re almost there. Maybe if we were a waiting family and had done everything we could, we’d feel a little better.  But, we are stuck in between.  I guess we are guarded with our emotions about this as we don’t know if this will ever actually happen.

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  • I hope you have a wonderful vacation. I’m glad you got to meet your niece and are in love–I love my nieces and nephews so much and am so glad to have them in my life. I hope that your adoption meeting while you are in Puerto Rico gives you information that starts to make the process seem a little less overwhelming and scary.

  • Good to hear from you. I hope the research, information and meeting in Puerto Rico bears some fruit and moves you further in the right direction. I have liked your facebook page.
    Wishing you everything of the best and enjoy your holiday.

  • Jennifer

    I have been following your posts and am in a similar position. We have finished fertility treatments, unsuccessfully, and are beginning the adoption process. It is scary and stressful, but I think adoption is a beautiful thing and I wish you the best of luck in expanding your family. It has been hell but, at least for me, in the end, the ultimate goal is to be a mother. For some of us, there is no easy path to that endpoint, but we will get there. There are babies out there for us, whether they have been conceived yet or not. Try not to let people get you down. I hate it when people are less than enthusiastic about our decision, but people rarely respond how you want them to. Perhaps they don’t understand because they either never REALLY wanted to be mothers or the path to motherhood was easy for them. I hate it.
    Best of luck and you are in my thoughts!

  • So glad to hear an update from you! I’m adopted and I’m so glad that I was 🙂

    Your future child(ren) will be so incredibly lucky to have you and Erick as parents – no matter how or from where you get them. Good luck with the adoption process!

    Enjoy your vacation 🙂

  • I hope you enjoy your vacation! Sounds like exactly what you need right now!!!

  • Congrats on moving forward with adoption! I hope that your facebook page helps to get the word out. I will surely like it and share it on my blog. Enjoy your time in Puerto Rico. I went last year and had a lovely time. I hope that you will feel better soon and know that even if you don’t have your master plan right now, you will find it soon.