I always feel hesitant to say this. I have a personal vendetta against that word and I always found it hard to say “I am pregnant” even when I was. I felt like such an imposter.
But, now, it’s a little easier to say “Nicole is pregnant,” or “We are pregnant.” But, I still find myself saying we had positive tests or we are “technically” pregnant. I am so happy and encouraged, and yet it’s hard to adjust to that emotionally after what we’ve been through. So, I’ve been hesitant to share this news.
After our transfer, Nicole took a home pregnancy test at 5dp5dt, which is 5 days past our 5 day transfer. She got a positive, which was wildly encouraging since that it so early to get a positive! We were ecstatic and especially surprised with good news so early, before I really had a chance to get nervous before our official test, which was scheduled for 12 days past the transfer. Normally it would be 10 days, but the 10th day fell on a Saturday, so we would have had to wait.
Then a few days later, at 8 days past the transfer, she got a nice dark line.
After these positive tests, we were allowed to move our beta test (the official test) up to 9 days past the transfer, which is one day earlier than typical day.
Our first beta was 393, which is a fantastic number, especially for one day early.
Our second beta three days later at 12 days past transfer was 1823! It needed to double every 48 hours and it way more than did that. We feel confident and lucky with these numbers. We had to wait all day to get the results and I went nuts in nervous anticipation.
Our next step is to have the first ultrasound on April 1, 2013. We will go to Norfolk and we are excited to spend some time with Nicole and her family.
I wish I could be more calm about the whole thing, but after five miscarriages, it’s hard. Even though everything is going great, it’s hard to keep doubt and fear from creeping back in, but I’m really working on enjoying the moment and trusting in God. Also, things are different this time –we are using a surrogate and we have normal genetic-tested embryos. That’s what I keep telling myself, over and over.
We praise God that she is pregnant and we are continually praying for a healthy and growing baby or babies.