The immune results are in. And, they’re negative! I’m really disappointed. I was convinced this was the problem. See my initial post about my phone consult with Dr. S here. I was ok with having this as a problem, because it’s treatable. I thought we would finally have an answer for everything that has happened and finally be armed with the information to overcome this. Nope. No activated NK cells, no DQ alpha match, no nothing.
Now, we’re back to square one. Unexplained infertility and pregnancy loss. I don’t know what to do now. I was sort of already resigned to the fact that immune issues were the problem. Now, we have no idea. Bad luck. Poor embryos. Poor eggs. Some other random problem. Who knows? I have been tested eight ways to Sunday, so there’s nothing left there. If I’m not the problem, then we have to assume the problem lies with the embryos.
- So, do we blindly continue on and hope a cycle works out on sheer luck? How much can I take?
- Do we try again with Pre-implantation Genetic Screening (PGS) ? That would ideal if I had another $5000-6000 lying around to fork over. Comprehensive Genetic Screening (CGS) isn’t even an option as my clinic doesn’t do it.
- Do we try donor embryos?
- Do we decide that this is enough and pursue adoption?
- Do we decide that this is it?
These are mind-blowing, life-altering questions for which I don’t have the answers.
I absolutely hate this unknowing, this uncertainty, this fumbling around.
I feel like our last shot at a biological child is no longer within reach. This is sobering. I’ve had too many of these moments.