I am kind of on “the other side” now. Not there quite yet, but not in the trenches of infertility either. This new normal is strange and wonderful. I’m happy and still a little scared. I will be until the babies are here in my arms. I am just feeling like a fish out of …
This week has been such an emotional roller-coaster. First, we found out that our second beta test was great. It looked like the pregnancy was doing great so far. See this post. Then, Nicole called me crying yesterday saying that she was bleeding. I reassured her that it was normal. Ten minutes later, she called back …
PREGNANT! I always feel hesitant to say this. I have a personal vendetta against that word and I always found it hard to say “I am pregnant” even when I was. I felt like such an imposter. But, now, it’s a little easier to say “Nicole is pregnant,” or “We are pregnant.” But, I still …
Today was a harrowing day. The day of our embryo transfer to our gestational carrier + a big snowstorm, dubbed “Snowquester.” There was excitement, happiness, confusion, nervousness, anxiety, gratitude and hopefulness all rolled up into one big ball of transfer-day jitters. Pre-transfer We woke up at my friend’s house, having driven up the night before …
I have been pretty patient throughout this whole surrogacy process, especially since it has been ongoing since August 2012. The things that matter are going well and I’m thankful for that. But…it’s frustrating as hell at times! We have completed the legal agreement and all of us have approved it. My attorney drafted the agreement, …
We are super happy to say that we are finally making progress with our surrogacy journey. Our clinic wanted us to do the counseling part first and we’ve been doing slowly trudging our way through all of the requirements since September. Three long months later, we are finally finished! Yippee! It doesn’t sound like it …
This past weekend, Erick and I went to meet our surrogate in person. She is just an incredible woman. We met at a botanical garden and went to a live butterfly exhibit. We picked this activity because it was family friendly and we thought her 3-year-old would enjoy it. Once we were there, I was …
Our surrogate dreams may not be over yet. I have debated and debated about posting about this. I have shared every intimate detail of my life on here thus far. So, what’s changed? I don’t know. I guess I have taken a hiatus from infertility for a while and maybe I feel like if I …
Here we are again. Trying to pick up the pieces of our broken dreams and move on. I have a weird dichotomy of feelings right now. Part of me feels dejected, weary, downtrodden and beaten down. This part screams out at the world, “Seriously? Seriously?! How can this be happening again? You’ve got to me …
We have been considering gestational surrogacy for about a year now and have learned a lot along the way. It can be quite complicated, so I just wanted to share what I have learned thus far. Typically, surrogacy is outrageously expensive, but there are some ways to make it happen for less. And, it is …
