I am thinking a lot about all of our five babies that didn’t make it. I know that Erick and I are the only ones who do. And, we feel robbed in so many ways. We never got to meet them. They didn’t even get names. So, I decided to do something to memorialize their …
I’m having a hard time lately. After my latest miscarriage, I think I rushed things and tried to be “normal” too soon. You can’t run from grief and heartache. It always finds you. Right now I am feeling in the midst of two worlds — the world of infertility and the world of adoption. I …
I just tested positive for celiac disease!?! Crazy, right? I was stunned when I got the phone call. However, from what I understand, I have to wait for a confirmation of the diagnosis after getting a biopsy of my small intestine. I recently came across two people who had suffered through infertility and then after …
I am so unbelievably frustrated with doctors and healthcare right now. Why is that that “healthcare” after a miscarriage only adds to the pain instead of helping? I miscarried last Monday. I called my doctor’s office — I don’t actually have a doctor any more since she moved several months ago. And, the practice never …
First of all, THANK YOU so much to all of you for the amazing outpouring of support over the past few days. We truly feel loved and are so thankful for that. We returned to the doctor today because I couldn’t stand to wait until Monday and stay on the meds that long. Today’s ultrasound …
Here’s the post that I wish I had never written. This is the end of this pregnancy. And, it’s the end of the road for us. It’s finally over. We went to the doctor today for our third ultrasound. Today we hit the 7 weeks and 6 days mark, which is the farthest we have …
I don’t know how to let go of this dream. I don’t know how to say good-bye. I have known for quite some time that we may never have a child, but I still had hope. Now, I don’t. There is no dream any more, just reality. I have known for a while that we …
So, this one’s going to be a snooze-fest. You are forewarned. For the scientifically-inclined, maybe this is fun stuff for you. I got the specific results of my immune testing in the mail today. Dr. S had told me over the phone that I have activated T cells. Well, more specifically, my immunophenotype testing showed …
This isn’t a new feeling for me, but it won’t go away. It’s just dividing and multiplying. There’s nothing anyone can say or do to make it better. My life is always on hold for trying to get pregnant. I feel like we can never plan anything more than one month out. Yet, now, trying …
Keiko Zoll, an infertility advocate, recently blogged about women’s rights and what’s going on in our country right now. Basically the government is trying to govern what we do with our bodies and while legislation is predominantly related to anti-abortion, they are rolling in a bunch of other crazy stuff that would affect women’s basic …